Simply S T U C K.

             We are given so many chances in this lifetime to get things right. Yet we constantly decide to make lefts, and not see that the options we are given are sometimes what is needed, though not what is wanted. I can't begin to fathom the number of times I have felt simply stuck, like how you feel when both shoelaces are tied together, or when dreams are much better than reality. Stuck when it came to life, my friendships were growing to be inconveniences that I didn't want nor need. Stuck when it came to love, the person I had chosen to be mine, the one I believe I wanted, was slowly slipping from my grasp, and when it came to trying to hold on, I was slipping in between "a rock and a hard place."

             I don't know what you'll take from this. But what I took from the many lessons I have learned, those old southern grandmothers in the movies were right. "Don't let these Lil' boys fool you," they would say "if he left her for you, then he's gonna leave you for the next her." Love is supposed to be blissful hell, that's the best way I know how to put it. It's supposed to keep you up and imagining moments that may never come. Fighting for something to believe in, but I've learned more than anything, things worth believing in sometimes don't have to be fought for. Falling in "love" is awful simple. Falling out is simply awful.

            I don't know how to tell you to become unstuck, but I think yesterday I gave my friend April the best advice:  "Now we're just stuck...and that's okay...that is human, but you can't fret about stuff that won't even matter in two months...in August you will have forgotten about January 21, and you will be fretting about something completely different." Sometimes when life sticks you to a wall, or when love sticks you to some rocky road ice cream and Breakfast At Tiffany's on a Saturday night, you have to grit your teeth, take some reallll deep breaths, punch your fist and go about business. Because in the end you will find that forever love, those true friends, that dream job, that feeling of complete bliss...and you will seldom remember the feeling of being s i m p l y stuck.