i've seen some things...

            Sometimes I can't help but be mad at the circumstances of life. But that's life, and at times my mother and I wept about life, and love, and sometimes I wish she knew I'd seen some things...some things she'd been through, sometimes I wish she knew I'd seen some things...I was so disappointed in her for, sometimes I wish she knew...I will love her through all the sorrow and heartache we've ever faced. Sometimes I wish she'd see some things...                  


"As we knelt on the kitchen floor I said 'Mommy Imma love you 'till you 'ont hurt no more.' " Kanye West sang this in a song-dedication to his mom. I thought parents were supposed to never break down in front of their children. I thought wrong:

There are some truths in every puddle of tears,

Some strength in every nightmare and fear,

Some growth in every sleepless night,

Some grounding here in every flight.

I didn't wanna cry,

Because I knew,

Every time I cried,

She died a little more inside,

but every time I lied,

I died internally and outside.

So when I finally had to decide,

Save her heart or slay my own,

& We cried long nights till tears were gone,

These tears were the greatest strength I'd ever known,

The greatest stamina she'd ever shown,

For breaking down doesn't conform to weak,

But hiding in fears afraid to speak,

afraid to smile afraid to cry,

because you think she'll die inside.

These tears were the greatest strength I'd ever known,

The greatest stamina she'd ever shown,

We'd released the pain that hurt so bad,

Break-downs,

Move-ons,

The courage that my mother had.