my goodbyes. :* )

to Ashley: i know it looks bad now. but when i look back, you're going to regret everything we both said. whether you like him or not, i don't mind anymore. i let emotions get the best of me. and last time i cut you off with no goodbye. but goodbye formally and when i move and forget you ever existed i hope you have everything you want and need. and you and him are wrong. i was hurt. but now i am done and will in all maturity not miss you. time to grow up. i just hate really that karma comes back ten fold. goodbye.
-Bianca. 

to Emelia: i wish i could forget i everybody and everything tht made me question myself. but i cant. i thought changing my hair and friends would make things okay. but thts not it. we are all done. and i was too scared to say goodbye. to scared to face you and erica and him and ashley and de'aira . but i am not anymore. and my heart will have love for you always and her too. and as i write this with all the love and pain i have to give. goodbye. thank you for all tht you have taught me about friendship and love and i know youre always gonna be a great person. i love you emelia esi minta. please don't ever forget me. :' )
[4:21:49 AM] Bianca Brooks.: and after i finish crying and reminiscing on all the ways you've helped me grow and all the afternoon bus rides and adventures and promises and tears and raps and pictures and places and boys and lessons and clothes and loss and being there for eachother. i promise that i won't ever forget you either. 

to Tyrell: hmm. how do i start. lol i dyed my hair! haha and yeah i cut people off, which was dumb. i should've said goodbye. because of almost a year & everything about us was great. you were part of my heart, hell, you were my heart. and now its time to take it back. funny how life changes, huh? funny how you love someone and then don't the next day. i guess this is right for both of us. i don't know if i'll be here when you get back & i'm packing, or if my house will just be memories i had. i only owe it to you to reminisce on the good and tell you i'm ready to say goodbye. i've been thinking and the past is the place i have to leave what we had. no hard feelings left, because i wanted to let you know i don't love you anymore. and i am so glad. i hope the next girl you love you love everything about her. it was a "good run". forever good luck in love and life. never forget me. because i don't wanna forget you, tyrell. ♥
-Bianca Brooks. :) 

to De'Aira: i thought i could cut you all off and tht meant you werent part of my life anymore. but you are, part of my heart and my being. and i was so scared of out loud saying goodbye to that. but now i know as the tears stream down my face writing this that i'm ready. no one can ever show me the love and sincerity you have and compassion and realness in a person that is so rare. i will miss your caring and responsible self. ill miss the prom nights and sleepovers and your freestyles and all the love that you've brought me in the last two years i have known you. i really hope you do alvin ailey and explore the world with all that is special and wonderful about you. thank you for your friendship and for letting me inside your heart and world. never forget me de'aira. because i promise i'll never forget you. goodbye.
-Bianca Brooks.